06/17/2008 America/New_York -0400 EDT

end of the year good bye blog see you next year maybe

its the end of the school year yay

06/13/2008 America/New_York -0400 EDT

screw up

yeah that should be my new nickname for screwing every thing up with everything

06/12/2008 America/New_York -0400 EDT

I love you but....

im not sure how much more i can go on liking you but not getting you i wanna be with you but still there is so much that seems to be in the way like david dave mark threee guys right there that you like one that you would stright up cancel my chances to go out with there other one you went out with before me because you likeds him more which hurt alot and you still like him that hurts alot and then the last one you pretty much made it a choice between us and i dont like having to hope that maybe you will choose me it sucks just being and option to someone and you should know how that feels it hurts alot and people shouldnt have to go throw that i love you alot and you know that and i have showed it over and over again and you say your starting to fall for me which means you must have some pretty strong feelings already so why not just give them a chance yeah i know there is alot to have to be worked out but still nothing ever will with us being busy all the time i just wanna see you get to hang out with you thats all think about it all and try to think it over for real because if you back out with mark i give up for ever and im moving on and then i guess he would be right you go out with dave then its going to hurt alot and i dont think i could be around you alot you go out with david which you said you  might do then that just shows me you dont really want to go out with me and tells me i should stop trying yeah i know all of these are basicly me saying you go out with anyone else i quit but what should i do keep trying and not get anywhere you have picked people over me a few times now there is only so much i can take i love you and all i want is to get to be with you make you happy like you would make me because you could make me really happy i love you i dont mean this to be like im not going to be your friend but it will get me to rethink about my feelings towards you ill always be your friend

06/12/2008 America/New_York -0400 EDT

just saying

someone should get on aim and text me and yesterday was fun because me and mark are retards and got bitten by bugs for walking to target by going over the tracks then me getting lost and not being able to find my way out lol

06/12/2008 America/New_York -0400 EDT

yesterday

It was sorta fun could have been alot better but genny wasnt able to hang out which really sucked i was really looking forward to it and bam no ugh o well i guess i couldnt do anything about it her phones dead and she cant find the charger so that sucks more because now i cant talk to her really and ugh blah i miss talking to her alot =/ well i hope we can find another day to hang out and i hope we can work out all of are problems

06/11/2008 America/New_York -0400 EDT

just a blog

a blog about nothing really just wondering about people that really havnt talked to me today or yesterday much

06/10/2008 America/New_York -0400 EDT

silly song

"Jenny Was A Friend Of Mine"

We took a walk that night, but it wasn't the same
We had a fight on the promenade out in the rain
She said she loved me, but she had somewhere to go
She couldn't scream while I held her close
I swore I'd never let her go
Tell me what you wanna know
Oh come on, oh come on, oh come on
There ain't no motive for this crime
Jenny was a friend of mine
So come on, oh come on, oh come on

I know my rights, I've been here all day and it's time
For me to go, so let me know if it's alright
I just can't take this, I swear I told you the truth
She couldn't scream while I held her close
I swore I'd never let her go

Tell me what you wanna know
Oh come on, oh come on, oh come on
And then you whisper in my ear
I know what you're doing here
So come on, oh come on, oh come on
There ain't no motive for this crime
Jenny was a friend of mine
Oh come on, oh come on, oh come on

06/10/2008 America/New_York -0400 EDT

Hope to get closer and not further away

So close but yet so far again i hope that doesnt happen anymore i love you alot i really do i and really want my chance even if you love mark forever it shouldnt be a big deal to me and if we dated for a long enough time there might be a chance i can be up there with him you not being happy with me was me being stupid i would be willing to do so much to make you happy i would try everything possible so its stupid to think if your able to start falling for me that you wouldnt be happy with me i hope i can your choice one of these times and im willing to try so much i dont wanna lose out again